Eeheehee. @ Thursday, January 10, 2013

I have always been full of love, oh, yes, yes I am indeed... I have always loved Rodan, he's my prized possession, the only one I would never let go whatever the situation is, the person who can hurt me because I'm his whatever happened... the only man on earth I would give in to, of course.

But, have I told you that I have to thank this man for making me realise all the big mistakes I've done? Eeheehee. If it wasn't his doing I wouldn't realise two filthy females that kept clinging onto me... they clung to me like they were bacteria and they kept growing bloody cancer inside of me without me knowing...

One day, I was the one who did the diagnosing, once again, all regards to my and only my Rodan that one of these two scums, which the two are apparently friends with each other more than I am towards the one or the other... if that makes sense, basically they are fucking my head with each other's help.

Oh what a fool I was to never realise until then... though, I have been betrayed before that. Silly, silly, Angee... her hatred when she was betrayed the first time was never enough to release me, but because of dear Rodan, it was finally more than enough to fuel up the anger that would send me to the real world.

The betrayal, the fakeness, hee hee... HEEHEEHEE HOW COULD I HAVE FORGOTTEN?

It was on September 6th, 2012 when I discovered the filthy conversation between Rodan and this person with those fucking filthy words Rodan sent to her, she would have probably triggered it. Look at that devil inside of me screaming "what in the bloody hell" as I imagine I rip her face out of her skull and probably burn it into ashes. But that's probably too easy isn't it...?

She had an accomplice, who turned out to be a friend who was dear to me, who I thankfully had known that she was an arsehole to begin with but I still talked to her about this matter. Haha, WHAT A BLOODY FUCKING FOOL. I was being a clown on the day I told her, I was so stupid that I'm feeling so angry right now I want to kill myself. Of course this accomplice would have told the murderer about what I said about her, but what did I care? None, thankfully.

I approached her as well for being the bitch she is. And then just like what she always does, I got it back at her, I put a smile, a sweet face that's sickening to the stomach but loved by all men, gave kind words to her and told her I trusted she would never mean that.

Oh bloody hell, that sweet face is not going to get me you bloody rotten shit. Not after I realised you felt glad that I told you that I was going to distant away from Rodan? No bloody way.

Not long later too, I realise that Rodan had already forgotten her for awhile, through my excellence in stalking him, but she just came back quite recently to then because she left him a text. Rodan didn't even know her number and she bloody texted him? She knew her guts well, oh, she knew well that she was going into the lioness den by doing that did she not? Since then they started talking again.

It's too bad that I couldn't approach this person on that day or else she would have felt my pain and anger she made me felt for days and weeks, and the coming traumas that go ahead. It hurt me, it hurt my relationship with Rodan so I decided it would be best if we both have no contact with her whatsoever anymore.

I don't take mercy... I deleted everything from everything of Rodan that has her name or her face on it, I simply erased her "memory" from him, little by little. Rodan is mine, and anyone who interferes our sweet relationship should just gO FUCKING DIE. I WOULD LOVE TO SEE THEM BATHE IN THEIR OWN BLOOD.

Eehee. ♥

I was serious! ;)

I was serious for bearing all those lies and fakeness and all things HUMAN for about half a year. I'm not stupid anymore.

Clearly me being possessive lately with Rodan was not something normal I would do, but it was the trauma that YOU fucking caused that triggered the fear that caused me to do everything Rodan hated. Rodan hated me because you fucking did this to me. YOU AND YOUR FUCKING ACCOMPLICE, you were both the same.

Oh yes, yes. I remember what your accomplice had done, or perhaps, you are the accomplice after all?

This second person... ever since I was in a relationship with Rodan she had never agreed to it. She always tried to tell me off of Rodan, it was not even three months and she has been telling things like Rodan never liked me (and she said she heard it from the first person...), and how Rodan spoke like the first person (rather than me, oh, what holy hell are you in? RODAN IS MINE AND I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN HAVE THE SAME SPEECH AS HE DOES, right, sweetie?), or how Rodan is this and that that we should be better off... breaking up, or fighting for nights.

NO.

The hell would have loosen if we did. And I wasn't stupid. HAHA, HAHAHA YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT YOU THINK BY DOING THAT I GET FOOLED? FUCKING FOOLS.

Up until now I've cut all possible ways Rodan can contact that person and I was glad Rodan did it too in his own volition. /smiles sweetly

I wasn't kidding when I said something about erasing... I was never joking, ever.

If murder was an acceptable social interaction of showing how much I hate you, just like sex and love, maybe I would have murdered you two...

Now you two can have peaceful life together without me. I know you are silently watching me, and I am watching you too... Have you been thinking that I was a sweet girl? Eeheehee HEEHEEHEE HEEHEEHEE.

That's funny.

Never trust a person especially when they had obviously done something wrong to you. Of course they despise you one way or another and just because they apologise, doesn't mean they won't do it again... These two people have sweet, kind faces that everyone loves. Oh yes, they have lots, and lots of friends indeed... 

Beware of these "sweet" people because no matter how pretty one thing (person) can be, there will always be a rotten side of them. Always.

Including me, as you all know now, eeheeHEE!

I am the rotten side of Angee and if you trigger me again, I would never hesitate to appear and perhaps...

Harm you, a little bit? Or maybe... just some more? ♥

Human relations, memories, desire and betrayal... Those are just four staple motives, aren't they? They're all a cliche... It's really very boring, isn't it!Those are not the only four motives one can find in this world, of course. This world we live in is full to the brim with countless motives that make men kill one another. They entice people to murder their peers, and bring Despair upon the world. I call them "The seeds of Despair" - Enoshima J. (Dangan Ronpa)

I would... agree. But murdering and dying is way, way too easy... letting them live in fear, heh, that's what I call awesome... I have all these motives to drive me.
1) It began from our past friendship and branched to my relationship with Rodan, which they tried to destroy.
2) From that incident on, they gave me traumas, bad memories of the past, fear.
3) I've always wished to live happily and peacefully with Rodan, never wished of any of their intervention.
4) And lastly, betrayal? Of course it was there... it was there all along, they betrayed me, they made Rodan started to betray me too... but of course it didn't work, I was too quick to figure, didn't I?

I am very straightforward of what happened in this post, and I still haven't put names because...
Well, behind every rotten one there would be something pretty behind it too, right?

... or isn't there? :)


Angee Ross CADAVERINI ♥