And I'm so sorry, I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight. @ Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Wow I brog so frequentry ratery. Well, I've just done lots of productive studying today, so "party" on the internet for awhile I shall--just for the little gifts I can give to myself. :)
Trying to be happy but I can't. D:
Boyfriend lost his phone and I haven't contacted him for the whole fucking day. Yeah, pretty much you could say I am not happy with the situation but, I'll just have to have the patience. C': Have FB messaged him.
Dear Rodan Sastraaasajhekjahrkshkr, when you're done sorting things out and with your work can you contact me ASAP? I'm both worried and... yeah. :'( I can't believe I'm weeping over youuuu.
Have you guys ever missed someone and wonder if they miss you back? D:
That's what I'm doing right now, and unfortunately, maybe it's just my brain being extremely pessimistic since it's under pure stress from hours of studying just now, I don't think he misses me. D':
I mean, he has a life. Pfft, I barely have one and today is my day off. Oh well.
Maybe God is telling me to keep up with my studying that I have left off for two long weeks lately because I'm busy with everything else ;_;
Talking about studying, all I have studied today is Accounting. Heheh, veeeeeeery productive. I tried to study Marketing but nothing works. I hate it and that's how it's going to be forever. D: Dreadful life, ay.
I'm going to do my Econs presentation in a few.
If you guys ask me whether I'm trying hard to make myself busy, yes I am, I need to distract myself. Every second I spend staring at the space of nothingness I always find myself in a sad, sad moment.
Yes, I am insecure, no I am not proud of it. :'c
I wish my best friend is able to go onlineee, but she is having exams right now. Ugh!
So many insecurities, so little time and ability to wash them away! God, save me.
Okay, I declare this as one of those emo posts (might as well tag them as one)
Mum baked lots of stuffs today and none of it made me happy. I don't know why she didn't notice but I've been putting that poker face the whole day.
Okay I sound like a weepy teenager now, I shall stop. I am Angee Ross Cadaverini, 18 years old going 19, I am an adult, I can do this. C':
Wasn't I the one who said love is when even there is so little contact time in your relationship you can still go through it?
I MISS YOU BAKAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. ;A;
This little rag doll is missing her Sir Skellington,
Angee Ross Cadaverini
I wanna know what love is. @ Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Yeah I pretty much put a sappy line from an existing lyric as one of my titles almost all the time.
Anyway, it's pretty sappy because I'm obviously going to talk about love--well, teenagers love this little stupid thing, don't they? Silly teenagers, I'm still one of them too, sadly.
So, here I shall quote a question from that wonderful meme, what is love?
Here is an answer my awesome friend has given, let us quote this person for I have asked the permission to put it on my humble bloggu.
The most important thing from love is it should be only from 2 people, not three, not one. I mean romantic love, if two makes the effort whatever happens go through. - Marcella Lie
Well that is quite true, I must say. I don't like interventions in my relationships. I hate interventions in my relationships even if they're coming from my best friends. What business do you have with the two of us? Hey, it's the two of us that matters, not the rest of you. Listen to thou explanation and be influenced, I shall, but nothing should stop me from loving this guy if I've already fallen so deep and we're together.
Dude, best friends, aren't you suppose to SUPPORT me instead? Some bitches won't shut up, they want to know our love lives. I used to be one of those little teenagers who keep talking about her love life, but I have said NONE to anyone out of my little league (so little I could die, I HAS NO FRAND). Like, what have I done with him so far, how were my dates going. No one else needs to know if I have decided so.
Just in case any of you is wondering if I am in love. Wahlao eh, isn't that obvious? Haha! Exactly why I am writing this post, right? I am in love with this cute man, one year my senior but we went to the same high school and graduated together. Let me tell you about our love story.
Hehe, there's nothing much. Sadly?
I mean, we have been living apart from each other for about a year now after all, and it all just bloomed really fast during my June-July holiday. I was quite happy it happened, I actually expected something to happen between us during that time sooner or later. :'D
I'm sure he likes me from ages ago, about a year now? Am I wrong? (Whoopsies!) But I was not into anything further with him at that time since I was... sort of taken. I remember him talking to me almost every night nearing the end of my exams, we kind of didn't talk much after because I was enjoying vacation in Singapore and Indonesia. Not wanting to spill any detail 'cause that's for my besties' private readings, but yeah that is that.
Cutely, he thought I rejected him for good at that time. Hehe, no no. I actually found his actions to me quite cute but I just couldn't accept it then. He kept trying, I noticed, even when I'm already away in Sydney. Ah, just, he's really cute! (I wonder if he'll read my blog if I didn't notice about it to him)
Long story short, let's not make this post tl;dr.
Still apart from each other with the three hours difference (fuck the time zones) we've been together for... a bit more than three months ONLY but I am pretty really sure that I have fallen in love. Right or wrong, who knows in the future. I see him as a perfect figure for my future husband, and that is the way it should stay until we get married :)
Love is when two has created their own world, their own life, not exactly never giving a fuck to the outside world but their world is the only thing that matters.Love is when no matter how long or how far you are apart from each other, you will still be in love and it will just accumulate in time no matter how little contact you have done with each other.Love is when you feel those butterflies fluttering silly in your tummy everytime you see their name on the screens, hear their voice, or just looking at him from five metres away.Love is when you can't stop talking about him at least in your head.Love fluctuates all the time, but may we all be sure that true love doesn't stop no matter how hard it fluctuates.Love is not far from the little wars or fights you two will have in the coming future. Invincible, may I say, but when you're in love these fights will hold you two closer, not further.Love doesn't make you blind, but love won't make you think anything else matters. Not age, not gender, not social status, nothing. It's just "you and me".Love is like your masterpiece, all you want to do is show them off, not for fame, but because they're so amazing you are just so proud of them no matter what.Love is a lot of thing, but what matters is what--no, who is love for you, because everyone is different! If someone's definition of love is the same as yours, you should be worried.
So who is love for you? Mine is him, and that's how it's going to be forever.
I'm sorry I'm feeling real cheesy tonight, and he's working. Baaah I kind of miss him. Hehe.
Silly little love, trying to mess with our minds.
So I think...
Love is a method of brainwashing.
Be good, use safety, and ciao ciao! ;)
Oh, I will so give tips for relationships next time.
Oh, I will so give tips for relationships next time.
"Do you love him?"
"YOU RECKON?"
"YOU RECKON?"
With lots of loves so much that you can't resist,
Angee Ross Cadaverini
Labels: boyfriend, crush, girlfriend, love, love story, relationship
Ooh, she's bringing sexy back. @ Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Oh yes, yes she is totally back to blogging alright. It's not like I miss blogging or anything... (eh?) But since right now I have some spare time to... spare... well I'll just have to share about the stuffs that have been happening these days. It's been hectic, really, but at the same time there has been lots and lots of fun too!
Ok, I seriously don't know from where should I begin the epic rant of my boring life, but let's start from where I last left off--May? Ah, but I don't really want to reminisce my winter holiday in Perth ;A; such wonderful memories.
Let's start from after the break shall we? It's my second semester in Uni, my life as a freshman is going to end pretty soon! Oh god, before I know it I'll become a senior... this semester I'm taking Japanese again and dear Lord, my Japanese is really rusty, like, really. But I'm sharpening it again now! (And no don't even try asking if it was successful) Also, I take Accounting as I am required too, oh yay. And meeting Marketing too, oh goodness the subject I hate ever since Year 11. Econs, I thought I was going to hate it but NO! I don't love it either though, I just... well, sort of like it.
Anywho!
It's really bothersome that I have group-work based assessments in all these subjects. Not that I hate teamworking, but it's just that it's not my best point? I put my hardest into these works but they never get me to the satisfactory point--mainly because others affect the results as well? Not saying that I'm the best, it must be my lack of organising skills too, but you know.
Ah, getting too off track, I need to get on with this again! Next thing is that many things have been happening in this semester, from many levels of fights with my now totally-seriously-BFFFL, me turning legal a.k.a. 18 years old, and going back to Perth for the two-weeks study break! (I didn't study, ha, such a misnamed break.) Since there are just too much happening, might just as well post photos sooner or later--since pictures say a thousand words and writing would need, well, a thousand words to say a thousand words.
I've been so busy like hell lately that I haven't spent much time on the Internet, except for Twitter. I even forget to sign on Skype everyday... and I have used less and less and so much less Tumblr nowadays. Not sure if I'll get back to it later when I'm back into my holidays again, depends if I get a job or not... but still, I miss my Internetical environment ;A; my frieeeeeeends...!
Oh, jobs! Yes, I have just applied to some Macca's, KFC, and Woolies outlets and Macca's has been responding to me lately. Not sure if I'll take the job if I ever get them though, I've got interviewed twice and I'm still waiting on my reply for the Chatswood branch. But I'm leaving in like two months more or less, so I'm pretty much in dilemma right now. Though I don't think I will take the job... probably not. :(
I can't wait for all these to end in like, 3 weeks or so? I can't wait for my exams already ;A; I love exam season/weeks because I actually get totally productive though I've started from like, last week? I have four exams in a row, the only break I have are the five days before the first exam and the weekend just before the last exam. I hate it that I have Marketing as a last exam, because apparently it's the easiest subject I'm taking this semester, yes, even compared to Japanese. All in all, sadly, they have to make Accounting my very first exam and Econs following after that. Gott verdammt, Macquarie Uni.
Anyway I've just submitted my big arse worth of an essay (25%, hear me?!) and I'm currently having painful twists inside my tummy. It always happens to me when I'm under pressure... I know, such a weak little duckling, I know. :'C So I'll probably sleep early tonight...? And by early I mean 12am, of course, duh.
Coming up are some random photos I choose because I think best fit to describe the whole time I've been absent from this blog. (Do you notice the increasing number of pictures? My new Blackberry does have the best camera, indeed, so...!) Oh and I'm going to try to find new layouts for the blog! And no I can't be bothered designing my own for now--so I'll go and get some codes, whoop! Enjoy the pictures, until then!
There goes my life journey up to now! And now... aherm!
Dear my boyfriend, lover, best friend, ice cream (eh? I'm hungry...), and (very hopefully!) husband-to-be, Rodan Sastras, happy 10-minutes-early-Sydney-time third monthsary! I know I don't say this much but kasjdlkjlkjfklasjlkdjLKJ SLKAJLKD I love you, a-and... ohgodIdon'tpublishlovewellokay, BYE. Nyan nyan...
Angee Ross Cadaverini